If I Die Tomorrow

If this was my last day with you

I would silently observe the reflection of this room in your eyes

Hoping to feel present for the first time

If this was my last day here

I would break the glass resting on my skin

That invisibly separates me from this world

And from you

If this was my last day with you

I wouldn't tell you

I would talk to you about my half-finished poems

As if I had the courage to write again

Hoping someday you will finish them

While you might be searching for me

Between the lines

Or trying to forget me

If you notice my voice shaking

While talking to you

Try to ignore it

If you notice my eyes getting blurry

Find comfort in your sudden disappearance

And wait for gravity to reveal you again

If I die tomorrow

I would finally realize that the ambient pain

Is another proof that I'm still alive

You know

I know

The fragility of everything

The fragility of me

I know

You know

That as the sunset approaches

Every time you smile

I die a little bit

I'm sorry I haven't touched you enough

You see, I can only say "I love you"

In silence

You might be angry with me

For hiding it from you

But all I wanted was another normal day with you

If I don't die tomorrow

I will live as if I could